Death and Sorrow

i just received a bad news, and the bad news is, there's three of them.
first one, my uncle had been diagnosed having cancer..
two cancer at one time. one in brain, and one in lung.
the news is shocking. it made me think a lot about life and death again.

i couldn't even imagine how my cousins would live without their dad.
the doctor estimated that he would probably live for just another 6-12 months.


oh kay.. second news, our family has a cancer GENETIC.
which means that anyone from my family can just get cancer at any time.
my grandma, used to have a cancer rahim.
but then her family sent her to therapies, bought lots of herbal medicine and yeah, stuff like that..
then, alhamdullilah with Allah's permission, it's getting much better now.
second people in my family, my mom's cousin.
she has a breast cancer which is the most common cancer for women in the world.
whoah, that really freaks me out.
there's a LOT more people in my family that has got cancer.
but i can't really list them all.


so the third and the last bad news is
i got conjunctivitis.
damn it burn
my eyes is all runny and itchy and its freaking red.
and guess what causes that?
eyeliner.
my plumber in my eyes is stucked with eyeliner.
and i have to put eye antibiotic drops in my eye every single hours to get the thing out of my eye.
now, what i'm scared of is..
it's getting worse.
it's going to my another eye.
and what im freaking freaking out is..
who knows i got an EYE CANCER?


God i really have to start to think positively.


So now, the good new is,
my mom made an eye appointment for me on this monday.
and our family has agreed to eat salad everyday and eat fruits as our 'snacks'
so like every time we are hungry.
we can't eat chips and junk foods.
instead, we have to eat fruits and oats or craker oats or grains biscuits.

Back where I belong

Heyy there!
Wow. Guess what ppl! I'm leaving school on friday O.o
It's, of course.. Pretty hard to leave this freaking epic, awesomest, craziest school.. It's one of the most best school i've ever been to. NO, Seriously. Everyone is just so kind. Yes, I do have problems when I first came here last year. But it keeps on getting fun every day. And now, It's like the best school ever!

Almost everyone asked me why do I have to go to Malaysia and never come back again? They say, why don't you stay here forever? I honestly don't know what to answer them. Like, I MUST go back to my country. I can't just stay here forever. It's where I belong. It's where I came from. Andd.. I came here for just like for fun FYI.. We're just seeking for adventures and exploring a new world.. And we're just like wanna learn a proper english since all those schools in Malaysia doesn't really teach the proper one..

To be honest, I am very excited to go back to Malaysia. I can't wait to jump in the swimming pool, eat everything you want, go to any freaking restaurant(cause it's halal), see my mom every morning, be with my whole family, meet my cousins, sleepover at my friends house, shopping with my sister, talk the whole night with my cousins, play the piano.. Yeah, pretty much everything.

And the most things that I am most happy about is.. I'm never gonna do this stuffs anymore in Malaysia, to wash dishes, change pillow sheets, bed sheets, wash clothes, iron uniforms, cook, wash the toilets, doing the garbage, fold my clothes, vacuum the carpets, broom the tiles, clean the kitchen and many many more. Unless I get married.

To all the teachers, Thank you for everything that you taught me, And I'm really really sorry if I made you mad, or talk at the same time when u're talking or being rude to you. PLEASE Forgive me..

Most of all, thank you so much Mrs Fatima, you taught me many many things in life, i just want you to know you are a very good teacher, and I love you Miss :) May Allah bless you..

And also to Mrs Chandrika, Im so sorry for talking so much in the class.. Now, you're gonna be in peace since I'm not gonna be in the class anymore eh? Lol, btw thank you miss for teaching me cool stuff about science!

And of course, Mrs Aida.. I want you to know that you're the coolest teacher ever. Even though it hurts when you shout, Your voice is the loudest voice i've ever listened to. lol.. I love you miss ;) Thank you for reminding us about it's okay to have a crush.. lol.. and also thank u for always tell us our mistakes on tajwid when reading quran.. Thank u miss :)

The last but not least, Ms Renee! YOU ARE THE BEST MISS! You are sooooo awesome and sweet and kind and cool and yeah. You're just freaking awesome! Thank u for teaching me all the techniques for volleyball and showing me how to play footy and giving tips for basketball.. Thank u for introducing me to cricket since I never played it before.. Andd.. WE had the best partyy everrr...!!

Lulieta AKA Lollie or Luli or LOLIPOP!

Classmates ;)

The coolest sports teacher, Ms Renee AKA Surf Chick! =D

Me & Hanaa AKA the dirtiest minded girl! Dx

Again... 7A Classmates with Mrs Fatimaaaa! <3

And to all my friends, Thank u for making my life great and being my friends ;))

I luv all of yous so muchh & will never forget yous!

Hope we'll meet somewhere in the future xDD

And sorry if I accidentally slapped you, kicked you, pinched you, swear-ed at you, annoyed you, hated you, talked about bad things about u, ignored you or yeah anything else that hurt you..

Sorry and thank u againn ;))

Till we meet again!