Death and Sorrow

i just received a bad news, and the bad news is, there's three of them.
first one, my uncle had been diagnosed having cancer..
two cancer at one time. one in brain, and one in lung.
the news is shocking. it made me think a lot about life and death again.

i couldn't even imagine how my cousins would live without their dad.
the doctor estimated that he would probably live for just another 6-12 months.


oh kay.. second news, our family has a cancer GENETIC.
which means that anyone from my family can just get cancer at any time.
my grandma, used to have a cancer rahim.
but then her family sent her to therapies, bought lots of herbal medicine and yeah, stuff like that..
then, alhamdullilah with Allah's permission, it's getting much better now.
second people in my family, my mom's cousin.
she has a breast cancer which is the most common cancer for women in the world.
whoah, that really freaks me out.
there's a LOT more people in my family that has got cancer.
but i can't really list them all.


so the third and the last bad news is
i got conjunctivitis.
damn it burn
my eyes is all runny and itchy and its freaking red.
and guess what causes that?
eyeliner.
my plumber in my eyes is stucked with eyeliner.
and i have to put eye antibiotic drops in my eye every single hours to get the thing out of my eye.
now, what i'm scared of is..
it's getting worse.
it's going to my another eye.
and what im freaking freaking out is..
who knows i got an EYE CANCER?


God i really have to start to think positively.


So now, the good new is,
my mom made an eye appointment for me on this monday.
and our family has agreed to eat salad everyday and eat fruits as our 'snacks'
so like every time we are hungry.
we can't eat chips and junk foods.
instead, we have to eat fruits and oats or craker oats or grains biscuits.