Feelings

Salamm :)

Hmm.. I RARELY feel like this in this past years..

And what i meant by 'feel' is.. Like.. useless, not confidence, u know.. Low self esteem..

Idk why but today I just felt soo weird in a bad way.

I don't find my friends is actually a REAL friend anymore.. They just love me cause of my pretty handwriting, cool stationery and maybe homework =\

Sometimes they just wanna sit next to me when they wanna copy me from a test.

And yes, for sure, I'll always smile and say 'Of course'.

But deeply in my heart .. No one knows..

And yesterday, I was skyping with my mom..

And accidently, terribly, suprisingly , there's drops of tears falling on my cheeks.

I know most of people out there may thinks that I'm a MOMMA'S LIL PRINCESS or anythin else..

Honestly, I DON'T CARE what u think..

And I don't even know the real me anymore.. 

Sometimes I am soo kind.. And sometimes I just hate everyone and gets mad.. I can be all emo.. And I also can be all hyper and happy and laugh until my stomach gets hurt..

I changed a lot lately.. By a lot i meant my personality.

Yes, I know it's normal cause apparently this is the TEENAGE year and hormons changes at this part of life..

But pfft.. whatever it is.. I hate this feeling,  I hate this part of life.. But that's just life rite?

We must go on.. Everyone(myb most of them) will pass this test.. 

Okay, so that's all for today :)

Whatever it is, You must go on and stay strong =)

Allah will always be there for you whenever and wherever.

Thank u for reading!